June 20 (Saturday)... So I wanted to say something about my little updates. I started these for two reasons. First to make it as easy as possible to get information to my family and friends about my cancer. Second to have a journal for myself of how I deal with what is happening to me.
I have loved writing for a long time. Although my elementary school teachers (Susan Loffer for one) probably remembers when I did not want to fill a page to complete a writing assignment. Writing allows me a way to digest the details floating around and make sense of them. Sometimes my posts will be a little long or go off track.
So, when I am writing these updates it is fresh and raw thoughts put out there for all to read.
I have heard that I am putting up a good front. Showing a brave image. Trying to act as if I can deal with anything. But the truth is...this is as real as it gets. Anyone who knows me...knows that I don’t sugarcoat things. I tell it like it is. Sometimes to a fault.
Through the last two months, I have never felt scared or worried. I am not angry or weepy. I truly believe God has surrounded me with what I need to deal with this. He has given me the grace to be uplifted.
I try to tell the whole story minus the yucky bodily function stuff. After all, even I know one can give too much information. I doubt you want to hear that I got excited about having a bowel movement after my colonoscopy. And who of you wants to hear about feminine issues? Nope. You won’t see that in my updates. I will save that stuff for my medical journal I have going.
So be assured...if you read it here then I am OK if I say I am OK. And if I am not then I will do the best to express that too.
This weekend I will be praising God and enjoying the quiet that only a house full of children can give. I am going to thank God for the days that are boring because that seems to be a good thing. I hope you have a great weekend too! God bless!
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